crap

jgn nk mengada2 sgt leh x zarina? gedik, drama queen tol.. pi tido je la.. x mnyusahkan org..

u suck!

pppfff.... rasa nk mencarut yg teramat sgt nih! ntah la, ade gak org mcm tuh kt dunia nih.. mengucap pnjang aq weh! tp skrg ngah bulan ramadhan, so, x baik lah nk mencarut memanjang.. tp seriously x sangka, hal itu akan brlaku secepat ini.. YA ALLAH, KAU berikanlah aku kesabaran dlm menghadapi dugaanmu ini.. mcm2 jenis org kt dunia nih.. stress! mak kau x ajar agaknya pendidikan moral spnjng kau hidup.. patot lah jd mcm nih.. xda adab! kalo la org tau prangai sebenar kau, mmg turned off la wei! lg satu, aq x sangap la ngn benda2 tuh suma.. hambikkkk! aq x hingin daa.. sakit mata lgpon.. rimas..aq dh replaced dh ponnn.. u make we wanna puke everyday! fucking hope everything dpt di settlekan asap b4 raya.. xlarat dah.. we should start a new life.. yes!

i miss u, Atok

my grandpa just passed away.. it's been about 12 days since he left all of us.. lately, when my cousins and my mom were together, we often talked about him.. how he was such a kind-hearted, extremely patient, funny and well-mannered person.. we never have bad things to say about him.. that's a good thing, Alhamdulillah.. after his death, i realized a lot of things about him that i never expected him to be.. he never scold his children, he loves to buy things for us and he always think about others above him.. i really miss him right now.. i sometimes regret that i couldn't spend much more time with him before.. Atok, although i can't see u anymore, i'll always remember u.. i took ur little pouch for me to keep as a remembrance of u.. i miss ur smell, ur smile, ur grey hair, u with ur antique little radio, u fell asleep on the couch during raya, u and ur fav fruit, bananas and every small things that u do make me miss u even more.. anyway & anyhow, now, i could only pray that Allah will place u in His paradise.. Amin.. been able to kiss ur cold forehead made me cried non-stop & i saw everyone else also broke into tears.. look Atok, everyone loves u.. i will never forget those days when u were in the hospital.. u looked so weak.. my eyes were teary every time i visited u.. u waved at us weakly & even tried to get off from the bed.. as a result, ur hands were tied on the bed.. i really hated that, u were quarantined.. it was such a sad thing having to make choice between him to be alive but needing for resuscitation or let him took his last breath naturally.. we've decided which was just to let him took his last breath slowly & this was the hardest decision that ever been made by us.. my hands were shaking when i saw ur dead body was buried... death is such a sad thing.. unexpected & painful.. i love u, Atok..

sad

this is sad.. they are still not talking to each other.. almost three days already.. what kind of family is this? no, actually, what kind of person he is? totally immature.. i'm totally stuck in the middle.. freaking hate this situation.. urgh!!

baking

my mom can't cook anymore.. so, since then, i have no choice but to learn cooking at home.. if not, i will end up eating outside food every and each day.. blugh.. i can't stand it that way anymore.. not in my hometown at least.. so, every semester holiday, i often spend my time cooking.. simple Malay dishes and stuff.. bla.. bla.. but i never try baking.. all this while, i hate baking especially 'kuih raya'.. messy, complicated & fussy.. however, i don't know why, lately, i've been fucking craving for cupcakes.. it's kinda tiring to find any cupcakes store in my hometown.. i gave up.. so, last week, suddenly, i have a brilliant idea.. why don't i just bake my very own cupcakes.. as i knew, baking cupcakes is not that complicated.. so, there you go.. i officially baked my own cupcakes! woohhooo... buying stuffs and ingredients for the cupcakes is fun but decorating them is much more fun! sweetness alert! if u saw me during my baking process, i totally looked like a crazy girl.. maximum exaggerated excitement.. al-maklum.. that was my first baking experience okayyy.. i'm satisfied & kinda proud of myself.. muahaha!

hate

some people are just not being thankful enough for what they already have.. for family, friends and things that have been given by Allah to them.. do they ever think for a while that other people might be dying to have what they are having right now.. they keep mumbling, being emo without any major reasons in public..sometimes, i just hate these people.. seriously..

some people

OMG~ how selfish can someone be? how stingy can someone be? how ignorant can someone be? to what extend can they be? these people can be among our friends, neighbours and even among our own family members.. this is sad.. after living together for so many years, but still some people seems do not ever want to change.. u can blame someone else but please take a good deep look at your own self la.. come on.. yeah, i dun have the right to say anything, i'm not perfect as well but i know when i need to act as an adult.. i have patience but i dun know whether it can lasts longer or not.. u with your ego.. and another u with your ignorance.. they should get lost.. i won't mind..