less and less

i will be going home like less than four days from now.. i dun know why but i don't feel fully happy at all.. i feel like i'll be leaving something special and meaningful to me in s.alam.. 4 months.. anything can happen.. this is sad.. this feeling always happen every end of the semesters.. and this time, i'll be the last one going back home.. how am i suppose to transfer all my stuff into my new house? i wish i could have the courage to drive alone all the way back to johor but i know.. it's the car.. the car is crazy and unpredictable.. it's like killing myself if i ever going back to johor alone driving that car..