bla bla

you always acting like that when i'm with you.. u really r 'sumthing'. and that's totally different when u r with her.. even on this very '****' day..

less and less

i will be going home like less than four days from now.. i dun know why but i don't feel fully happy at all.. i feel like i'll be leaving something special and meaningful to me in s.alam.. 4 months.. anything can happen.. this is sad.. this feeling always happen every end of the semesters.. and this time, i'll be the last one going back home.. how am i suppose to transfer all my stuff into my new house? i wish i could have the courage to drive alone all the way back to johor but i know.. it's the car.. the car is crazy and unpredictable.. it's like killing myself if i ever going back to johor alone driving that car..

screwed up

i fucking miss him!!!! am i crazy?? yes i am..

fine!

oh my.. i feel sad! nape la ade sukantara bodoh tuh.. i really wanted to go to my class tmorrow.. that will be my last class with 2D.. for GOD sake! i haven't take any pics with them.. i wanted to do something fun with them tomorrow.. i wanted them to do sumthing for me.. i have planned that, u know! but then, xpasal2 kena jga lompat jauh form 1 esok.. aih.. ~~ dukacita tol.. now i need to find suitable time to be with them for the very last time.. mentang2 kami dh nk hbs, suka2 je cepatkan sukantara.. giler mngambil ksempatan! aihhhh... dh la sukantara smpai friday.. no more baju kurung.. have to wear sports attire until friday.. wuu...

sv

i definitely wanna eat a lot of food tomorrow!

u know why? tomorrow, there will be a 'jamuan' for the trainee teachers.. yeay.. i can't wait to eat nice food.. yummy.. ;)) btw, i never been happier in my life before, at least in this school.. my supervisor sent me a message that she won't come to observe me anymore.. yezzaa.. it means that she observed me for only 3 times.. i wish upon the stars that she'll give me good grades hopefully.. she told me to enjoy my last week in this school.. of course, i will.. ;) sad.. suddenly i feel sad again.. ;(

weird

yesterday, he told me something.. it happened that actually the 'ustaz' is not so 'ustaz' anymore.. the fact is that, they were actually best friend before.. people called them twins as they were always together.. yeah, i can see that.. their face, height and physical are actually almost the same.. it happened that he had a gf before and they broke up.. but after that, the 'ustaz' a.k.a bff started to be in a relationship with his ex-gf.. that was why they started to break apart and no more bff.. no wonder they look weird when they were together.. the aura is not so warm & good.. hurm.. the 'ustaz' is eventually not that 'ustaz', i guess.. but now i wonder, why he told me all about this? yeah, i still remember the time where i was sitting in the middle between him and the 'ustaz'.. literally i had to talk to both of them at the same time.. i don't want any of them to feel neglected so, it was weird.. i can feel the negative aura.. bla... bla.. bla..

giler fever

al-Fatihah.. smoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.. Ya ALLAH, please make me a better person.. please.. please.. please..

i think too much.. no. i can't think straight.. and now i'm having a fever.. great.. i've a headache.. i've a flu.. alone in this house.. i rather going back to school.. i've a lot of people to talk to.. no money to buy medicine.. no money to eat nice food.. no money to be wasted.. there is no one.. nothing left here.. this making me sick.. three weeks seem so long.. urgghh.. i'm freaking hungry.. dia dh masuk duit ke lom ni.. urghhh...