Sunday, October 24, 2010


where oh where... this place is empty.. again. i can't barely feel it anymore.. juz gonna sit here quietly and let myself burn inside..... aihh.... wanna go home so badly.. where people r not being fake....

Saturday, October 23, 2010


see??? u don't have to if u don't want to.. it's so obvious.. i've told ya.. i'm a loner.

Thursday, September 2, 2010


everybody is going home already.. this is kinda sad.. i hate watching people leaving me.. thank God mira is still here.. this place getting quieter and dull.. feeling lonely.. need to go home for different kind of feeling.. wish raya this time will be more meaningful.. miz u mommy...

Sunday, August 29, 2010

die.. die...

can i just die??? aiiyyooo.. this is killing me.. u r one irrational creature that i've ever knew..

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


stalking someone.. looking at pics.. someone i knew very well before.. urgh, all the memories keep coming back again.. dun wanna feel this way but mayb i'm juz bored.. can't sleep.. dis is not normal.. i think i should sleep.. wat am i doing.. i need motivation to study actually.. school counselling notes are not inviting at all.. keep trying to read at least a chapter(slides) but nothing productive.. juz like mira, maybe i need pressure too then i can start studying.. that will be today.. then, i can go home.. i want to go back home but at the same time dun wanna this sem to end.. the same feeling at the end of every sem.. kinda sad.. kinda gloomy.. kinda empty..

Monday, April 5, 2010


this is totally weird.. it's been a while i haven't update my blog.. jd kalo aq dh update nih, msti ade sumthing la nih.. urgh.. i'm such a bad person.. i know & more worst, i didn't do anything to avoid that from happening.. before this, when i do sumthing, it doesn't involve anyone else.. not at all.. i do it bcoz i want to.. but now.. this thing.. it involves other people's feelings.. that can make that person will break into pieces if that person would ever know about it.. people that i care so much.. oh.. heart.. oh GOD.. help me.. don't let me lost you again and again.. i know i already did.. but..

i'm just scared..